So an end of a relationship is never easy right? Wether it’s due to an argument with somebody you thought was your friend over somehing trivial or your partner dumping over a facebook message with the good old,
“THAT’S IT, WE ARE SO DONE *Insert optional insult here*”
They just aren’t nice especially when there is always somebody who hurts more than the other. In my case we were both equally upset initially but with the help of budweiser and weed he was right as rain in no time. I was left picking up the pieces of our abrupt end. And I’m sure you have guessed by now I was the one who was dumped and I’m not going to lie I am at fault even though I didn’t mean or want to be, I’m the one who is wrong. Now wih this it also has to be said that I can’t take all the blame what happened was something I couldn’t prevent but things like that don’t matter when somebody feels hurt and betrayed and no amount of explaining and apologising is going to save this… I broke his heart and by doing this I’ve broken my own also.
So you’re wonder why I’m telling you this, right? Well, in about an hour it will be exactly 3 weeks since the event and I’ve learned a few things I think I should take with me into the future.
1. Just because you want to be forgiven doesn’t mean you deserve it, but if they really loved you they will forgive you none the less.
2. TIME! You can’t expect him to take you backmhe is hurting and he needs time to miss you, maybe he’ll realise that you’re worth it maybe he’ll believe you but not yet it’s raw, give him a break.
3. Even though he is hurting you if you tell him the truth and he doesn’t believe you then maybe it was a troubled relationship anyway… trust is so important!
4. This might just be what you need, you’re only 17… there will be plenty more dirtbags to break your heart in life… but there will be one who will put it back together piece by piece. I promise you, I could be a man, it could be a woman or a cat or a purple monkeys dinosaur hybrid…. but you’ll find your love somewhere.
Anyway to finish, I want him back but I’ll take my time take everyday as it comes… I’m currently trying the 30 day no contact rule… day 4 and I’m so close failing but I won’t! I have to do this for the sake of my sanity and everyone around me having to put up with me. XD
You have to live wih yourself for the rest of your life, it’s important not to depend on others for your happiness because they won’t always be there but you will. So smile, and be happy and don’t sweat the small stuff. LIFE IS HARD AND BEING A TEENAGER IS CRAP! But you have me and we’ll do it somehow… I hope… and anyone going through a breakup don’t worry we’ll do it together. ❤
Nancy Who?
xxx
Much ado about dirtbags 